'I'

Let the body and its problems be
Sometimes its healthy
Sometimes its weak

Let the mind and its continuous thinking be
Its nothing,
But bundle of information from outside
Which functions without my interference

Let the heart and its emotions be
Sometimes it brings sadness, anger and hatred
Sometimes it brings pleasure, love and forgiveness

Let the heart, mind and body be
Where do 'I' exist in them
Who is this 'I' ?
I don't find it anywhere
Does it mean 'I' is an illusion

दर्द

जाने ये कौन सा दर्द है
जिसे मैं कभी समझ नहीं पाई
भागती रही हूँ इससे हमेशा
कभी बैर के पेड़ से टकराकर ख़याल हो गई हूँ
कभी कीचड़ में गिरकर मैली हो गई हूँ

जाने कौन सी हिम्मत चाहिए
इस दर्द से गुजरने के लिए
मैं तो हमेशा भागती ही आई हूँ

हज़ारों कोशिशे की हैं मैंने
इसे अपने अंदर से मिटाने की
इसके अस्तित्व को भूल जाने की
पर ये भी जिद्दी ठहरा
टस से मस नहीं हुआ

चल,
जब तुझे मेरा साथ छोड़ना ही नहीं है
तो दोस्त बन जाते हैं
मैं भागना छोड़ देती हूँ
तू पीछा करना छोड़ दे
ज़िन्दगी का सफर साथ में तय कर लेते हैं

आ गई ज़ुबा पर वो बात

कहने को तो सब कह जाती हूँ ,
फिर भी कुछ है तो रह जाता है!
निहारती हूँ तेरी आँखों में,
शायद वो जानती हो ,
मुझे क्या कहना होता है !

I express everything,
Still something is left unexpressed!
I look helplessly into your eyes,
May be they know what I want to say

यहाँ सबको बहुत काम है,
कुछ करना है,कहीं जाना है
बस एक हम ही निकम्मे रह गए हैं
ना कहीं जाने की जल्दी है
ना कुछ कर गुजरने का जज़्वा है

Life

I don't know
The equation of life
What is good ?
What is bad ?
How can I demand anything?
How can be ever disappointed?

Life doesn't listen to me
It flows in its own way
Whether I accept or reject it

But I can make my small life hell
Because I see it through the tiny window of mind
Where I have definitions of everything
Where I divide I compare I fear

I have lived so long in imprisonment because of fear
Now,
No more I will do anything to protect me from fear
Let it shake me and make me feel terrible

Let there be fear of disappearing
Let there be fear of left behind
Let there be fear of being lonely

I can't go back
I will stand alone without any support of knowledge
I know it will be very painful
I know, I will feel lost in crowd

Still,
I will not lean on anything except my heart
I will not lean on anything except my heart

Love

I am ready to let go all the hatred blocked in my heart

I forgive all the people who made me feel unsafe
I forgive all the people who insulted me for being ignorant
I forgive all the people who laughed at me for being the way I am
I forgive everyone who has hurt me in anyway

And allow love to flow from my Heart to All.

Nobody is my enemy
I see myself in everyone
How Can I hate anyone
Everyone is weak and vulnerable
So I am like anyone
Who am I judge to anyone
I have very limited vision
So I allow love to flow from my Heart to All.

Let life decides for everyone
I drop my mind conditions for love
Who deserves?
Who is worthy?
Who is not?
How can I ever know?
But I can allow love to flow from my Heart to All.

In my life journey,
I have also hurt so many
Many times I failed to fulfill expectations of my loved ones
Many times I made people to shed tears in disappointment
Many times I used ugly words to express my emotions
Many times I was incapable to understand other's pain

I apologize every single person who got hurt because of me
But I have no anger on myself for my actions
I did the best I could do in given circumstances
I am not born perfect,
who knows how to love from birth
who knows how to express pain and anger
who knows how to forgive

I am in the process to learn how to live
Someday I will leave this earth
Before I leave,
I set everyone free from any bondage from my side
I will carry nothing from here to there except Love

Let the love flow from my heart to All...
Let the love flow from my heart to All...

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हे अगर हकीकत मोहबत की दर्द,
तो फिर दर्द ही सही !
पर मोहबत तू जरूरत है मेरी,
तेरे बिना होता मेरा गुज़ारा नहीं !

If the reality of love is pain,

so it is ..

But love is my deep need,

I can't live without it.

Suffering

Suffering is needed  for human growth like  a tree needs wind,rain, and sun for its growth. Suffering, Problems and Pain everything is given in life to sharpen our intelligence and to awake us otherwise we never bother about essential things in life. When some deadly disease knocks our door or somebody dear to us die, then immediately our perspective towards life changes within moments.

I am not saying we should invite suffering. I am saying when suffering enters in our life. Hold its hand and with love, ask what's the purpose of its Visit :-). It always brings some message and learning. A person who has never faced any problem is so weak that he will not have spine to stand his own but a person who faced the problems and suffered but converted his suffering into challenge and creativity. There will not be any fear in her eyes because s(he) knows her hidden capabilities to transform any problems into a learning.