Why looking into mirror again

First time I am looking into mirror and seeing my face
I tried to run away from it as far as possible
But now when nowhere to run,all doors are closed
and I am sitting in darkness
Fear of death is trying to catch me
Get up!! no need to sit here alone
Go back to crowd and laugh with them

How easy it was to blame others for everything
Now... truth is deeply hurting
I am the reason for all my pain and misery
Whom to curse on whom to throw anger
I am responsible for every bit of mine
Then, am I so stupid to make wrong choice all the time
Fear of getting mad is trying to catch me
why looking into mirror and seeing your face again
Go back to crowd and laugh with them

How easy it was when you were ignorant
False laughter and show off was part of you
Now you can see your false intelligence
Pretension behind smiled face
Engage immediately yourself in something important
Fear of left behind in the race is trying to catch me
why looking into mirror and seeing your face again
Go back to crowd and laugh with them