The Other

The moment you realize
Other can't fulfill you
Your whole world collapses
Your expectations drop and break into pieces

You no more control other
You no more hate other
You no more run behind anyone or anything

The other exist still doesn't exist

First time, you laugh on yourself
What a fool you were?

You were trying to fill
Which can't be filled Your 'empty space'
Which can't even be touched by anything or anyone

That day,
You give up race of Life
You relax into your emptiness
Where nothing matters
Neither love nor hatred
Neither success nor failure
Neither pleasure nor pain

'I'

Let the body and its problems be
Sometimes its healthy
Sometimes its weak

Let the mind and its continuous thinking be
Its nothing,
But bundle of information from outside
Which functions without my interference

Let the heart and its emotions be
Sometimes it brings sadness, anger and hatred
Sometimes it brings pleasure, love and forgiveness

Let the heart, mind and body be
Where do 'I' exist in them
Who is this 'I' ?
I don't find it anywhere
Does it mean 'I' is an illusion

दर्द

जाने ये कौन सा दर्द है
जिसे मैं कभी समझ नहीं पाई
भागती रही हूँ इससे हमेशा
कभी बैर के पेड़ से टकराकर ख़याल हो गई हूँ
कभी कीचड़ में गिरकर मैली हो गई हूँ

जाने कौन सी हिम्मत चाहिए
इस दर्द से गुजरने के लिए
मैं तो हमेशा भागती ही आई हूँ

हज़ारों कोशिशे की हैं मैंने
इसे अपने अंदर से मिटाने की
इसके अस्तित्व को भूल जाने की
पर ये भी जिद्दी ठहरा
टस से मस नहीं हुआ

चल,
जब तुझे मेरा साथ छोड़ना ही नहीं है
तो दोस्त बन जाते हैं
मैं भागना छोड़ देती हूँ
तू पीछा करना छोड़ दे
ज़िन्दगी का सफर साथ में तय कर लेते हैं

आ गई ज़ुबा पर वो बात

कहने को तो सब कह जाती हूँ ,
फिर भी कुछ है तो रह जाता है!
निहारती हूँ तेरी आँखों में,
शायद वो जानती हो ,
मुझे क्या कहना होता है !

I express everything,
Still something is left unexpressed!
I look helplessly into your eyes,
May be they know what I want to say

यहाँ सबको बहुत काम है,
कुछ करना है,कहीं जाना है
बस एक हम ही निकम्मे रह गए हैं
ना कहीं जाने की जल्दी है
ना कुछ कर गुजरने का जज़्वा है

Life

I don't know
The equation of life
What is good ?
What is bad ?
How can I demand anything?
How can be ever disappointed?

Life doesn't listen to me
It flows in its own way
Whether I accept or reject it

But I can make my small life hell
Because I see it through the tiny window of mind
Where I have definitions of everything
Where I divide I compare I fear

I have lived so long in imprisonment because of fear
Now,
No more I will do anything to protect me from fear
Let it shake me and make me feel terrible

Let there be fear of disappearing
Let there be fear of left behind
Let there be fear of being lonely

I can't go back
I will stand alone without any support of knowledge
I know it will be very painful
I know, I will feel lost in crowd

Still,
I will not lean on anything except my heart
I will not lean on anything except my heart