Illusion

I lived in an illusion of perfection
Realized very late
There is no perfect family
There is no perfect upbringing possible

Life is vast
Running in many dimensions
There is no way to judge anything

If mother is caring,
People have different difficulties,
If mother is insensitive,
People have different issue

Whatever is the case?
Every individual goes through challenges

I wish

I wish...
"To be" as it is with you.
Where I don't need to probe my worth
I don't need to hide my tears
I am not afraid to remain impotent sometimes

I am as I am
No layers imposed
My being expands in your presence
Becomes as delicate as it was born with.

Inner Space

There is a space inside
Which is untouched
Which is available to all
We get lost in outside
Get disconnected
Search our roots at wrong place

The day, we encounter it
We are liberated from slavery of the world.

Existence sharing...

My hands shake when I write
It's not 'me'
It's something else which writes through me
It's what...
Existence wants to share
I might not even know the meaning
I might not connect with it
I write as its wish

Nothing belongs to me
Even if I want,
I can't add anything
I can't change anything

It falls like a rain
It raises like a weave in ocean

Nothing belongs to me
I surrender
I trust
I drop my limitations
I allow existence to shower its love n wisdom
But,
I am not the owner of anything I write
I am just a mediator conveying messages.

Wonder

I wonder...
Does life situations really makes human so weak n phony?
Where she scares to speak what she feels?
Where she feels fear of rejection before she approach anything?
Where she hides her own being behind mask to survive?
Where her courage disappeared?
She was born with and was not ready to compromise for anybody?
Where is that stubbornness of being as she is ?
How her fearless expression got contaminated?

Does growing up in life
Really takes away all the courage n authenticity from us?
May be..it does.
Otherwise..why so much manipulation in all relationships?
Why people hide their truth underneath ?
Why so much fear to be individual ?
Why so much compulsive need to be part of some group ?
Why everyone tries too hard to be recognized n get approval?
Still...nothing fills the emptiness of inner being.
It remains there haunting us again n again.
Till we enter into the state we were born with.

Moment

If I live this very moment with love n grace,
I have become capable to live rest of life also.
If I accept myself exactly as I am without any change,
I have accepted and respected everyone.
If I relax in my ignorance,
One day I will have taste of patience.
If I stop looking for solutions outside,
I will not remain stranger to myself.
If I don't cling to security of tomorrow,
I will experience something absolutely new.
If I trust my unique beauty,
I will bring different fragrance to the world.
If I don't fear of my fears,
My laughter will create a magic wherever I go.
If I don't look my image in others eyes,
I will dance like a butterfly

Journey

It has been a long journey.
At last, I m fine with myself
I m not angry on my anger
I m not sad for my sadness
I m not frustrated on my imperfections
I m fine with myself as I m.
I m not afraid of my mistakes
I m not ashamed of my failures
I don't chisel myself to fit anywhere
I m fine with myself as I m
I don't feel shaky in my weak moments
I m having everything as any human
I don't try to be God above all
But,
I no more need saviour to rescue me
I am the only savior for myself
So I seek only me
And I  am fine with all that  I have in me